So many thoughts

Okay so I've totally flaked out on everyone lately and I'm sure I've lost some followers :(. I really need to get better at this blog thing. It's just been hard and time consuming lately. I've been working my butt off at work and the gym. I'm officially a vegan on a diet..how is that even possible? Well I've slashed my calories and gotten more serious about what I eat and counting calories. Boring! So hard. I'm sorry but I like cookies and brownies and breads and chocolate and pizza and fries..literally everything that's bad for you I want to consume. It's so frustrating, but I need to stay focused because I strongly dislike my body. Im not confident and I'm embarrassed. Embarrased about how I look and feel. I constantly think about it. Not good, that's when I know I need to change for me. So I will start this journey and hope it ends well and eventually be able to enjoy the things I love in life in small doses and in moderation. :) that's probably why I haven't been posting so much..I'm not going to show you pictures of the red peppers I had for snacks or the 10 almonds..yess I said 10. I can do this! I will have a bikini body! If I don't shame on me. Okay, I thought I was done talking about that. Anyhoo, I've decided maybe I need to start crafting more and blog about that! Another reason for lack of posts is because I just got a second job working at whole foods..yeah discount! Zac and I are trying to save up for a house, which hopefully we will own one by next year. I'm excited to say we're moving to a super nice apartment soon and well be getting a dog! Yay! I can't wait to decorate w all the cute new things I've bought. I'll be sure to post pics for you all! I promise to get back to baking soon! I have a few projects in mind I need to get started so I can share w everyone. So thanks to all of you who have stuck around!